Beatin’ Around the Azalea
Cut the great, big dead part out of the azalea before it becomes a blooming blemish in a gushing, flushing flood of fuchsia. It’s the step before my front door, and I’m not putting myself out there on my porch a la heart-on-my-sleeve all star-shaped pimple patch and such. I’m a grown woman, for crying the frick out loud in the silence of my own home. If you think you’re getting to me, face the flawless facade, cuz there’s nothing to find and feelings to hide. I mean, it’s not like you’re coming inside.
My Daughter Is A Barnacle
Sea slick and opulent, clinging to the edge of me, suctioning every surface. A daughter is a parasite until she becomes the sun. Suddenly it’s symbiotic— the bond between barnacle and boat. Sticky is the stuff of miracles, the kind of clasp that won’t wash off. The ocean bares her salty teeth. We hold on tight.
This Poem is for the People
who want to keep me small. I won’t apologize for how I’ve changed and grown I won’t say sorry for reading smut or saying fuck or caring about people who are different than me. I am ready to be free even if that means you no longer understand me I’ve spent too much of my life tucked in a picture-perfect box But now? I’m stepping out. Even if you beg and plead and clutch your pearls, wondering if I’ll make it to heaven. I’m good with God, thanks for asking.
When You Asked If I Believe In Ghosts
I responded with a joke evading the question the truth is I don't know and thinking about it for very long sort of creeps me out I don't know about ghosts but I'm certain of the invisible force that fills our halls enveloping us like a fog at times so intense I think I could reach out and grab it hold it in my fist this love between you and me is more than a vapor and after all this time it still takes up all the air in the room
My Daughter Asks About the Future
And because I can’t tell her anything for certain, I tell her about riding in the front of my grandfather’s boat— how two of us could fit up there snugly, sunscreened knees knocking together, eyes squeezed shut, mouths open toward the wind, like we were trying to taste everything we were rushing toward, like we were waiting for the words to a song we had never heard.
In Which I Envy Ease
I peer high into the sky on a blisteringly bright, Albany day, eyes tearing behind dark sunglasses as stark, dark pelicans swirl in tight circles. Closer to the ground, smaller birds hustle— flapping hard without a thermal to coast on. I am a small bird, flapping hard— but I long to be like a pelican
Sales Man
Hate lives just down the street. Right around the corner in the house with the paved backyard. He doesn’t like to get his shoes dirty. knock knock He comes by everyday about this time. Slides up to the door. Runs his small, slimy hands through his greasy hair. knock knock I don’t answer but he knows I watch him through the window. He smiles at his own reflection. Promises freedom and riches. Says millions just like me knock knock have already joined. For the low, low price of my soul he’ll even throw in a hat. Look, there he is now. knock knock
What Happened at the Pet Store
Please, Mama. I glance at my watch, a sliver of time before the optometrist. I want to go look at the fishies. We stop at the pet store, weave through dog food, litter. Wow! Fish tank light illuminates her cheeks, her lashes licking gurgling bubbles behind glass. A school of iridescent fish swish by, too many to count. In the upper corner of the tank, a fish stuck to the circulator. Puffy eyes, bloated body. Undeniably dead. My daughter doesn’t notice. What are their names? I like that one. Which one is the mommy, the daddy, the sister, the brother? Are they all friends? Let’s go look at the turtles now. Months later I still picture the rotting fish and my daughter glued to the front of the tank, awestruck only with life—it's shine, shimmer. Could I marvel at the fish, this life too, even though I know how it all ends?
Taylor's poem reminds me of Taylor Swift's "But Daddy I Love Him": "You ain't gotta pray for me." LOVE
My Daughter Asks about the Future...such beautiful imagery